Yup... Im that girl...

I am the girl that sings in the shower.
I am the silly girl that races with the time on the microwave...multitasking,
I am the blunt girl that tells you what I think-even when you weren't asking,
I am that girl.....
I believe in "Happy Ever Afters",
I believe in laughter,
I am that girl nobody understands...
I am that girl that has the world in her hands,
I am that girl...
I am that girl who believes in second chances,
I believe that accidents happen,
I am that girl who dances in the rain and prances through the hot fields of daisy's,
I am loved and just maybe....
I am not meant to change,
I am beautiful and free...
I am that girl that confesses I am no perfect... but only whom I wish to be...

Failure.

You are a liar,
Seeing yourself do well...that only fueled your silly fire,
How do you do such a THING!
You lied to me,
You disappointed your entire family,
But that is nothing new to you,
I thought you were getting through!
But you sadly... lied,
I hope you enjoy your wasted life,
The only stupid mistake is the one that doesn't teach a lesson,
You were almost there... but then the devil got to testin...
You you have fallen victim,
But that's okay... I will make sure that your grave is visited,
You left home,
The only safe place you have ever known,
You try to escape your past,
But it's yourself you been runnin from... but your freedom isn't bound to last,
You are really dumb... and I have been let down by you,
The worst part about ya is not knowing...
Where you at and where you are going...
I hope that you are safe,
I hope that you are aware,
That the person whom you hate most... only glares,
Back at you as you peer in the mirror.

Body Languge

I know that I sometimes can be hard to get,
But how do you not notice my frustration and the hand on my hip?
I am grumpy and you don't notice,
But why tell you ...it shouldn't be your focus,
I am resting my body for it to repair itself for yet another stressful week ahead,
I am anxious and have a steady pounding throb in my head,
My body aches and mind goes blank,
I really wish not to think....
I want to run away to the beach,
Be alone-nobody but me,
Because in the end- I will always be crazy,
I like what I like and know what I know,
I am not a baby... so let it go...
I am lonely...well past my needed sleep,
My rooms a mess and my anger goes a thousand feet deep...
Kinda like the Titanic-you only see the peek,
My face is home to the black circles under my eyes,
Being such a good actress is only furthering my disguise,
You can only tell me what you want me to do- good luck making me,
You can only say...and there is no shakin me...
My words come out how they please,
I don't see any use of having opinions if they can't be freed,
My soul longs for what it can't have,
For I frequently question what has gone wrong...why do I feel so bad?
I don't want to think...and don't want to go to church,
I should have known being forced to do something would never of worked...
I am pissed. Why? Well now that, is a good question...I feel like sh**,
I feel so bitter... I am almost sick,
Why? Now that is a mighty fine question...

Thank you for loving me.

My blood runs deep,
My mind dreams of joy as I sleep,
My heart beats with joy and love,
My forever abundance of love fills the cup full when you are thirsty,
You won't ever tell me-but you can always confide in me,
When you are sad and have had enough,
I will be there-even though it's not my joy-maybe then it won't be so rough,
You make me laugh even though I try to fight it,
You have saved me-I will never forget,
I have a beautiful life,
And always wear a smile,
I can trust in you with all my heart and for you I strive,
I have no more denial,
My heart is at rest,
Being loved is the best,
All I ever needed was a helping hand,
A family whom always understands,
A joyous song to hum,
Pulsing veins full of love,
If tomorrow is to accept my death,
I will be beautifully happy-until I consume my last breathe,
I will be laid to rest with without any regrets,
I was loved and learned to love... I am afraid of no such secret,
I learned to take control and smile with every ounce of sorrow,
Which has prepared me for the heartache of tomorrow,
I am overwhelmed by admiration and support,
I am forever shielded from my enemies grasp,
I have the true golden ticket-for mine shall eternally last,
I was given a second chance to love,
Thank God for I was chosen,
My heart has a pulse-it no longer is painfully frozen,
Thank the angels above,
My mind knows of nothing but your never ending love.

The choice is yours

Its the feeling of not wanting to say goodbye,
Its the feeling of not wanting to say hello,
Its the wondering of how it would feel to die,
But being too afraid to let go,
Its the feeling of being alone,
But with people you are crowded,
You want the anger to end-but its just started,
You want to be happy and just stop being doubted,
Its the feeling of wanting to pause the clocks,
Its the feeling of wanting to run away from your problems-though once you return-they patiently await,
Its wanting to taste the salty water and to dive off the rocks,
Its avoiding pain and trying to change fate,
Its doing what you please because nothing will last forever,
There is a set date,
In life it doesn't matter how much money you have or if you are cleaver,
Because there is a Heaven and a Hell...if you truly believe, only time will tell.

Invisable

When I am sad and in doubt,
I will forever seek you out,
With my mind and heart I will worship you for you have saved my restless soul,
You are the warming fire when my hands are growing cold,
You are the power that gives me strength,
You are the never ending energy that gives me hope to continue walking the length,
I will remain patient and loving when I am bitterly frisky,
I will continue to push even when I am so tired that I am dizzy,
Failure is not a word that I allow in my brain,
When I am ready to bust-I will stay sane,
I will always give thanks,
I know that it will be worth it when I see the Heavens golden lakes,
You give me happiness and peace,
A steady smile will always be,
Upon my face,
I am forever grateful- I have never ending grace.

A gust of wind

Your memory seems to come and go,
The way I would climb out my window late at night,
There are things I wish you could have know,
 Maybe then things would  have been alright,
You were my comfort and friend,
A mischievous source of energy,
My light at the end,
And even though you are gone- will forever be a part of me,
The sun would set and you and I would be hand in hand,
You were the only one that ever truly could always understand,
You kissed me goodbye and said that you would return,
Late at night I'd wait for you,
Knowing there was no way you would have gone back on your word,
But those times are through,
I still to this day wonder where you are,
Pray upon your soul with every shooting star,
The roses blossom and I start to wonder,
If you think of me too-and go back to that summer,
When we were carefree,
We danced in the rain and watched the thunder,
When I was all that mattered to you-and you were all that mattered to me.