Miss it

I have quick and clever mind,
I walk a straight but no specific line,
I speak my mind,
When I am confused I just give it time,
I am confident in the decisions that I make,
When I want immediate answer I will just wait,
The wind will blow as the hills flowers grow,
And the roof tops of houses will be covered in fluffy now...
But when the time comes-let me go.

15 years no bail

I said I would never return,
I open my hands and let free my thoughts,
My memories are on fire-good-let them burn,
May the horror house begin to rot,
Now its my turn,
I look in the mirror and your brown eyes pierce my mind,
Of course I fell victim... I am your kind,
I have dreams of your face as I peer into the mirror,
I laugh and look around because its your laugh that I hear,
I look at my golden skin and think of yours,
I have missed saying that I love you....
You have caused me many tears and have replenished my fears,
But your memory I will forever hold dear,
I miss holding your rough hand and shaving my pretend beard,
I miss your grimy shirts and calling you a grease ball,
I miss you.
My brown eyes reflect a vivid picture of yours...
When it rains it pours,
I remember when you'd get drunk,
The secret stash hidden in the trunk,
You thought I didn't know...how could I not?
In your memories I am forever caught,
In you web I am your forever prey...
You are gone...but you are here day by day,
The house was empty...momma was crying "Please don't hit me",
All those screams still  haunt my dreams.